No wind in my sails

I wish there was a pill that would give me instant motivation, but alas I have not been able to find one. I would also love to say that I am loving every minute of summer thus far and my kids behaviors have been impeccable.... resulting in a refreshed and relaxed laid back mommy... but alas that is a big fat "nope" too. Fact is the kids like to argue like it's an Olympic sport, I have been crabbier than I care to admit because of it, there is never enough hours in a day for me to get the things I want to get done, money is not plentiful enough and I feel like I am barking 3/4 of my day away. Ugggh. See why I haven't been writing? Who wants to read someones pity party? Not me.... unless of course it makes me feel better about mine.. in which case: bring it on!!! :) I know it is normal to get frustrated and feel stressed out, I just was hoping for a more easy breezy summer and was praying that the kids would fight less b/c there are no demands other than fun to be had. I have been reminded that life isn't always easy and isn't always fair, but its life nonetheless and a never ending work in progress. Thankfully, I have a husband who keeps me sane and loves me even when I'm not. Some people are not so fortunate and I smile knowing how blessed I truly am at the end of the day. I am trying to have a more carefree attitude this week... a drink my coke and eat my chocolate and not give a rats pa toot kinda week if ya don't mind. My body might not thank me but you can bet your behind my sanity will. Give and take right? ha ha. No days are perfect, I don't expect them to be. I just would like to be able to sit down for five minutes and eat breakfast without hearing whining about being bored, (umm....you just woke up!) or be able to go to the bathroom without an interruption about what I am doing... (hello.. bathroom..door closed...can I pee in private please?) It is going to be a looooooooong summer if they don't learn to just smile and use their imaginations and I don't remember to count to ten (often!). Hope you are finding yourself relaxing more than I am this summer, and enjoying all those moments you have to yourself! I need some wind in my sail!! Off I go to look for some ;)

Lord, have mercy on my soul!!

My baby girl is finishing 3rd grade tomorrow! Be still my heart!  Also, she is turning 9 in just a few short days. She is halfway to an adult! Even less than that until she can begin driving. I just do not understand how & why these days are flying by. The past 9 years have happened over night and I don't want to go to bed anymore people!!! I fear that when I wake another 9 will have passed as well! My heart can't take this. She is a little lady and independent and outgrowing needing her mommy. I miss the days where she wanted me to lay with her and needed a night light and the days where she valued my opinion instead of telling me how "wrong" I am. My baby girl, my sweet bird, is turning into a beautiful, silly, moody, young lady right before my very eyes! Birthday parties will be had this weekend, Happy Birthdays will be sung, cupcakes will be eatin & a few (private) tears may be shed. I love this girl. Heart & Soul. Updates after the parties coming next week!! Try to contain yourselves! ;)

Not feelin it

I am still here! I have things to say.. things to blog about, but I just havent been feelin it. I feel like I am not "with it" this week. Time is flying by and there is so much to do.. and not to do. I will be back at the writing thing soon... but until then I will leave you with this awesome quote that I read today! Enjoy your weekend!

True that!

xoxox